Never Too Late To Live Without Fear

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I woke up the other morning from a dream with this thought:

“You have been living most of your life with a survivor mindset.”

It was a disturbing realization and I really didn’t know what to do with it. I wondered how my life had been altered because of it. As I thought, I came up with a few things that I know to be true.

I have not been as generous with my time, talent, or treasure as I could have been. I have often been pretty guarded emotionally even when unnecessary. I have not taken reasonable risks in many areas of my life – reasonable, not reckless.

I have allowed a fear of what might be to overpower the possibility of what could be. As a result I may have traded ‘the best’ for simply good or adequate.

Somewhere along the way growing up I acquired the belief that the world is dangerous and unpredictable. I surmised that most losses are too hard to endure and therefore must be minimized at all costs. A wise man must constantly look out for potential trouble and manage it as effectively as possible. In short, life was about surviving, not thriving.

Although I can trace the origin of these beliefs pretty readily, I cannot overcome them so easily. They are locked down at a deep level within me and all the rational self-talk I can muster is frequently not sufficient to ameliorate the fears.

I would love to tell you that as a result of this awareness I have come up with a great solution – five easy steps to success. But I have not. Instead, I realize that I will need to monitor myself for unreasonable fear responses and subject them to the truth of the Word and the wisdom of others. It is a humbling process, because it may be in direct opposition to my feelings.

I do not think I was given that piece of information in my dream as a rebuke, but rather as a compassionate gift of tenderness, an invitation to release some of the weight I have been carrying around for years. Perhaps we are never too old to grow, and it’s never too late to heal.

4 thoughts on “Never Too Late To Live Without Fear

  1. If this is Dave, I think you may be hard on yourself. I can attest to your generosity with your time and talents and your ability to heal. My hands are doing well thank you. Forever in your debt my friend!

  2. If this is Dave, I think you may be hard on yourself. I can attest to your generosity with your time and talents and your ability to heal. My hands are doing well thank you. Forever in your debt my friend!

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